Below, you’ll find This Boy, a very short story that appears in Xan West’s collection of queer kink erotica, Show Yourself to Me. The book launches on 10/2/15 and is available for pre-order (in both print and e-book) from Go Deeper Press, and we’re thrilled to say the blurbs just keep rolling in:
Carol Queen, PhD, author of The Leather Daddy and the Femme, says Show Yourself to Me is, “insightful and intense, diverse and deliciously hot, and full of the deep rituals and spiritual, sexual yearnings of kink. Xan West writes it the way most kinky folks dream of living it.” Shane Allison, editor of Backdraft: Fireman Erotica, In Plain View: Gay Public Sex, and Black Fire: Gay African American Erotica, says, “Xan West’s work sends shock waves through the imagination that will send any reader over the edge into total sexual oblivion. A writer to watch, love, and be enticed by.”
As a heads up, this contains descriptions of sadistic fantasy, D/s dynamic, rough sex and pain play.
This boy pulls my focus. I look at him and see his need. The predator in me can see his eagerness for my attention. His aching to be touched. His yearning for something he hopes I might have for him. Some safety enmeshed in cruelty. Some darkness wrapped in pleasure. This boy sits at my feet, his hands in mine, and his hungry eyes holding me as he babbles earnestly about life after college and trying to figure out what to do next. He is basking in the intensity of my full focus, preening, rolling onto his back, and showing me his belly, unaware of what he is asking for or what it would mean.
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This boy is teasing me with his eagerness. This boy does not know what he is offering. I sit and watch, my muscles tensing as I stop myself from reaching for him. I breathe in, slowly, feeling my hunger grow as my sadism rears its head, a beast on the prowl.
I want to stalk this boy around the room until I’ve cornered my prey against a wall. I want to watch the pulse in his throat speed up. I want to savor the scent of his fear, build it up as I menace him with my size and ferocity. I want to speak to him softly, about sadism, about the beast that roams in my skin. Detail all of the ways he has been teasing it. Describe exactly the promises he has made and how he has been asking for it. I want this boy to realize what he’s been doing, and be afraid. And then I want to take his breath and watch him struggle, with a smile on my face. I want him to know what it is to be at my mercy and to see exactly how merciless the beast inside me can be.
I want to sink my teeth into this boy. I want to ravage him with claws and fear and relentless pain. I want to strip him down to his boots and jock with my knife, watch his eyes as he hears his clothes shred, and pull him down to the floor by his hair. I want to ram my boot into his cock, watch him writhe on the ground on his back as I grind the heel into him. I want to kick him, rain blows into his flesh, stomp him to bits on the floor.
And then I want to pull this boy onto his hands and knees and claim him for mine. Ram my cock into his ass in one hard thrust, grip him by the hair, and jack him back onto my cock as I drive my teeth into his neck. I want to mark every inch of this boy as my territory, scratching furrows into his skin with my nails, thrusting into him so deep he can taste it. I want to be thorough and ruthless and fuck him into oblivion, growling my triumph in his ear as he trembles on my cock. I want him raw and scared and mine.
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And then I want to pull out of his ass and make this boy clean himself off my cock with his mouth, telling him exactly what he is, my hole to fuck. I want to slam so deep into his throat and his mind that he is full of me. Until all he breathes is me. Until he is relentlessly focused on me. Until his breath is gone, and he is gasping and choking and pouring tribute out his eyes, just for me.
I want to teach this boy exactly what he is asking for.
The book is available for pre-order (in both print and e-book) from Go Deeper Press.