Book cover of Xan West's queer kink short story collection, Show Yourself to Me. The genders of the cover models are unknown. A Dominant's thumb rests against the bottom life of the submissive, opening their mouth. The chain of the submissive's collar dangles from the Dominant's index finger.SHOW YOURSELF TO ME: QUEER KINK EROTICA
Xan West

“Xan West writes stories about desires that are often stigmatized and silenced, and shows how purely erotic they are, which is amazing, beautiful, and, frankly,  refreshing.” —Wyatt Riot, sex educator

In Show Yourself to Me: Queer Kink Erotica, Xan West introduces us to pretty boys and nervous boys, vulnerable tops and dominant sadists, good girls and fierce girls and scared little girls, mean Daddies and loving Daddies and Daddies that are terrifying in delicious ways.

Golden-Flogger-Award-Nominee200Submissive queers go to alleys to suck cock, get bent over the bathroom sink by a handsome stranger, choose to face their fears, have their Daddy orchestrate a gang bang in the park, and get their dream gender-play scene—tied to a sling in an accessible dungeon.

Dominants find hope and take risks, fall hard and push edges, get fucked and
devour the fear and tears that their sadist hearts desire.

Within these 24 stories, you will meet queers who build community together, who are careful about how they play with power, who care deeply about consent. You will meet trans and genderqueer folks who are hot for each other, who mentor each other, who do the kind of gender play that is only possible with other trans and genderqueer folks.

This is Show Yourself to Me. Get ready for a very wild ride.


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“It would be easy to say that Show Yourself to Me is an amazing work and that Xan is an incredible author. The fact is that Xan hasn’t just written a great book, but a book that changes what erotica can and should be. Prepare yourself: from this point on, erotica is measured by what Xan has done and will do in the future.” —M. Christian, author, editor, publisher

“Xan West’s work is fierce and absolutely fearless.” —Simon Sheppard

“At last! An entire collection of radically queer, deeply transformative erotica by Xan West! No one chronicles queer kinkiness with more passion, skill, courage, and talent.” —Barbara Carrellas, author of Urban Tantra and Ecstasy is Necessary

“In Show Yourself To Me, you will read erotica about characters that are queer, trans, POC, fat, some with chronic pain and/or various dis/abilities (and more). Where has that happened before? Reading erotica that reflects so much of who I am and who my partner(s) are is pretty mind blowing and not something I’ve ever seen published. Xan West writes stories about desires that are often stigmatized and silenced, and shows how purely erotic they are, which is amazing, beautiful, and, frankly, refreshing.” —Wyatt Riot, sex educator

“I love this collection. It’s wonderfully intense in the best possible way. I adored the content warnings in the front. What a great idea!” —Alisha Rai, author of Serving PleasureBedroom Games and A Gentleman in the Street

“[Xan West’s Show Yourself to Me is] insightful and intense, diverse and deliciously hot, and full of the deep rituals and spiritual, sexual yearnings of kink. Xan West writes it the way most kinky folks dream of living it.” —Carol Queen, PhD, author of The Leather Daddy and the Femme

“Xan West’s work sends shock waves through the imagination that will send any reader over the edge into total sexual oblivion. A writer to watch, love, and be enticed by.” —Shane Allison, editor of Backdraft: Fireman EroticaIn Plain View: Gay Public Sex, and Black Fire: Gay African American Erotica

“Xan West’s Show Yourself to Me proves that the most important sex organ is the brain. Smart, hot, intense stories that are some of the finest erotic fiction around, [they] are so visceral and reach into you so deep they imprint like a new lover. They’ll give you flashbacks to kinks you didn’t know you had.” —Cecilia Tan, Circlet Press

“Xan West’s gorgeous stories breathe new life into the literary milieu of classic BDSM erotica. They are at turns frightening and earnest, but always true to form and completely hot. Show Yourself to Me is a veritable sexy switch of a collection, and is sure to become well-loved and worn out by queer leather lovers of every size, gender, and genre.” —Lyric Seal

“Stunning stories of power, transformation, and real queers from one of the most talented erotica writers, period.” —Sinclair Sexsmith,

“…Captures the endearing vibe of hanging out in radical activist hipsterqueer spaces…features an almost hypnotic prose style. I think my friends who are interested in penises will be very pleased by the penis-touching scenes in this book.” —Kayla Bashe, Goodreads reviewer


Xan_AuthorXan West is the nom de plume of Corey Alexander, a recent transplant to Oakland from Brooklyn, who has been doing community kink education for over ten years. Xan has been published in over 35 erotica anthologies, including the Best S/M Erotica series, the Best Gay Erotica series, and the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Xan’s story “First Time Since,” won honorable mention for the 2008 National Leather Association John Preston Short Fiction Award. Xan’s work has been described by reviewers as “offering the erotica equivalent of happy ever after” and as “some of the best transgressive erotic fiction to come along in recent years.”

Xan refuses pronouns, twists barbed wire together with yearning, and tilts pain in many directions to catch the light. Xan adores vulnerable tops; strong, supportive bottoms; red meat; long winding conversations about power, privilege, and community; showtunes; and cool, dark, quiet rooms with comfortable beds. Find Xan’s thoughts about the praxis of sex, kink, queerness, power, and writing at